Jesus Awareness is MUCH, MUCH better than self-awareness

[Lynn D. Walker]

I have done something this past month that I haven't done in a long time.  I started to worry because I became aware of my own faults and weaknesses and I lost my focus on Jesus.  I started thinking about getting older and what would happen to my wife if something happened to me?  What would happen to COWBOY COUNTRY CHURCH??  Surely my wife would have to live in poverty and the church would just fold if I up and died!!!  How foolish!!!  I started thinking of ways that maybe I could make more money, maybe there was some way I could save more money, maybe I could get a huge life insurance policy (at my age?? right!!), maybe I should start looking for someone else to step in and take my place as pastor of the church??  And then all of a sudden, I realized how unhappy all these thoughts were making me and I couldn't do much about it anyway, and I remembered how happy I was when I came to Jesus and turned EVERYTHING completely over to Him.  The Lord has NEVER failed me and He never will.  He will also never fail my loved ones or His church either.  Thank God for Matthew 11:28!!!  Restfully yours, ~Pastor Lynn